Monday, June 29, 2009

Alright I have succumbed to peer pressure hahaha.

MARY MARYYYYY CHANGE TO LIVEJOURNAL! XD

anyway, relinkkk! www.goingforth.livejournal.com
Thursday, June 11, 2009

SLCOT Outing - Sentosa

Started off in the morning when I went for facilitators' AAR and had an amusing encounter with Stephanie and Yichen (and I shall be nice and not elaborate further, AHEM). After AAR ended (and when Zhaoyong pangseh-ed us), Andre and I travelled to Harbour Front to meet the rest of the OT members. We talked a bit, I guess, mostly reflecting on how the past few months had been.

When we reached Harbour Front we were GETTING lost and we met Kayhian who introduced to us a new look xD It's really not too bad lah, fits him quite nicely, the new haircut. Went up to Food Republic, and the both of us were feeling kinda high which resulted in a series of really hilarious events to happen. Provided some sort of entertainment for the rest of them, lol. Let's wait and see if anything happens in STOMP, ahahaha.

Basically throughout the whole outing, there was a lot of "CLAY" and "AS" as usual. Played Captain's Ball under the hot sun on the equally hot sand but it was very enjoyable (: When everyone started not being able to take the heat and unable to resist the temptation of going into the water (points to myself), we started the "dunking". The water was very very cooling, omgosh. More Captain's Ball/Frisbee/stoning under the tent after that until poor Perry got a splinter halfway through captain's Ball and we just decided to go and shower.

SHOWERING WAS A CRAZY EXPERIENCE. LOL xD ahahaha! And STILL we made the guys wait reaaaaaaally long. Heh, sorry guys! After that we just went back to Vivo, took some time to decide where to eat, took some time to get settled in Pizza Hut in Harbour Front Centre, and took some time to wait for the food to arrive.

SLCOT can really crap A LOT. I never truly believed/realised our crapping skills until we decided not to go home just yet after the meal and we gathered outside Harbour Front Centre like some illegal gang. We weren't playing Truth or Dare, we were just...talking about everything and anything. From "whether we have ever really felt we were dying" to "whether one has changed after SLCOT". Left at only around 10pm (:

I'd miss being in Hwachong and when meeting other people whom I know, one look and they go, "Ah, SLC."

I'd miss Ortus Room, where we had our combined meetings, with all the screwing sessions from even advisors dating back to 12th SLC.

I'd miss Poolside where progs had so much memories there and where OT met up after one of the combined meetings and Andre gave a wakening talk.

I'd miss OTH Hall (Concourse), where progs resorted to to have our meetings because of the strict protocols set in only nearing the convention itself.

I'd miss waking up at 4am in the morning with the rest of progs at Chermain's house, with the guys probably scattered all over the sofa or on the floor.

I'd miss the Ops Room where OT had to gather at at really early in the mornings everyday during the convention, where we had our debriefs everyday, where it was the storeroom for all the OG logistics.

I'd miss Logs Room where most of us were sewing our Mass Games banner.

I'd miss walking into Hwachong feeling like I'm part of it.

And finally,

I'd really really miss SLCOT ): I think being in SLCOT made me feel like it's just so normal being amongst this whole group of guys 'cos all of us are somehow just so close already. 26 of us are just like this...family, awwww. It's like brimming with love for every single one in OT <3 IT'S NOT CHEESY, it's really true (: go ask anyone else. I believe that we are a group like no other, we won't drift apart so easily, alright?

Even though 15th SLC might have officially ended, like Shiyan said, I believe that it is really only the beginning of forging close bonds and friendships (:
Tuesday, June 9, 2009

15th Student Leaders Convention
2nd to 5th June 2009

I cannot really put it into words.

During Council Camp last year, I remember how Yuanyuh, Siming, Wenqi and Nicolette were sitting at the podium telling all of Batch10 about it. Telling us about what SLC is all about, asking us to consider joining the Organising Team, assuring us with 101% confidence that it would definitely be an experience we would never forget or regret.

And now that it's all over, we then really truly understand what they meant and felt for our own. Being part of the 15th SLC Organising Team is really like no other event I've organised before. Not to mention close to 5months for just mere 4 days, it involved so much challenges that I have never encountered before. Seriously, I've never worked so hard and felt so much for a piece of certificate before. Holding it in my hands make me so so proud of myself (:

I remember, how before the very first combined meeting in the beginning of February, I was both excited and nervous wondering about how it'd be like to work with a whole new group of people that I've never known before. Especially for such an important and major event. SLC exposed me to this kind of experience that has taught me in so many ways, and frankly and clichely I feel that I've grown in so many ways to become a better player in a team.

My committee, frankly, opened my eyes to basically all the possible challenges and difficulties a team can possibly meet with. From technical stuff like overwhelming amounts of work that even 6 people can barely finish, to the internal and emotional problems that a team can have. Like I told Yuanyuh before, it has given me the lowest and highest times in the past half year. I've cried a million times for it, but I've laughed a billion times because of it (: But no matter how it was in the process, what matters is that we managed to pull things off nicely in the end. It's all because that we, Programmes, is a team like no other.


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<3 15th SLCOT

The reason why I'm only posting about SLC now, is because I wanted to keep the memories in my head a while longer to reflect upon them. I didn't want to chuck everything out in black and white and possibly lose those real stuff behind all those events. Besides, I really didn't have the feeling to, because of all those post-SLC blues/greens/yellows/oranges/whatever you can call them. But till now, I think the sense of emptiness hasn't hit me yet. It doesn't really feel like SLC is over, because we're seeing so much of each other (:

Sentosa this thursday! And Hannah Montana was really hilarious, and KayHian is one of the funniest and nicest person I've ever met xD It's always such a pity how you realise you haven't been talking to the people before the event, only when it's really over then you realise you haven't had the chance to get to know them better.
Sunday, May 24, 2009

Frankly speaking, this is my very first experience working on a project that has taken such an unforeseen-able, unbelievable, unimaginable course.

There's little time left before the product, and this is not the time for us to fall.

We've made a new resolution and we can do it, yes?

8 days.
Monday, May 11, 2009

20 days.

I remember 22 days ago, when I started counting down to the number of days left to SLC, it was 42 days to it. At that time, Joseph, Steph and Chermain told me not to be sad, not to emo at that time, not yet. "Let's just wait till it's 20 days left then we'll all sit together everyday to emo together" (or to worry/panic, in this context now).

IT HAS COME.

GUYS, IT'S ONLY 20DAYS. 20DAYS. NOT EVEN 3 PROPER WEEKS.

I'm going to treasure these remaining days. Even if it means myself dying due to the stress and everything else probably being neglected, I DON'T CARE. 15th SLC, 15th SLC.

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SLCOT ROCKED TODAY.

<3 <3 <3 SLCOT. Today's massgames painting of the hugeeeee "15th SLC" was the probably the best times I have had with this OT. Even though there were slight hiccups before the painting started, we as an OT still managed to get over it and overcome everything negative and had really ALOT ALOT of fun together.

The banner was the most beautiful thing ever. I swear it is. I'd give anything to have one, ONE photo of it now. I'd show off to the world what SLCOT has done together.

When you go up to the second floor and you look down at first level of the SALT centre, with everyone squatting/sitting/standing over it busy putting in their own strokes to make the banner complete, you feel a really really strong sense of..awwwwwww. Heartwarming. I'M NOT BEING EMOTIONAL. Because frankly progs were slightly worried whether the banner would turn out to not even have the words "15th SLC" shown properly. 'Cos the banner, 6m by 7.2m, is so freaking huge that it requires the coordination of EVERYONE to ensure every part fits. Then you see people like Kayhian being so focused and even pulling out a CALCULATOR and a PROTRACTOR to calculate the proper ratio of magnification. <33333333

I'm SO SO SO GAN DONG! Omg. LOVE SLCOT! I personally had alot ALOT of fun today. I'd remember this day forever, I swear.

GO 15TH SLC! WE'LL MAKE IT ROCK. LOVE SLCOT <3
Thursday, May 7, 2009

I'm feeling damn lousy.

Okay so I did manage to curb it in and survived 3hours of gruelling flash/actionscript/coding zamming that my SMP mentor did to us, progs meeting (or rather, dinner), and probably didn't even seem to othes that anything was wrong. Good. I never did believe I'd fall into a pit so deep and many times I wonder if it's just maybe I've landed myself in the wrong place, or it's just maybe I'm not used to it yet, or it's just maybe I don't belong here at all. Or is it all 3. I don't find myself feeling more comfortable being here, or maybe it's just a slightly bit that it's non-existant at all. Or probably I'm just pretending that everything's fine. I'm sorry I can't empathise nor symphatise nor understand how you feel, but seriously just stop it. Even if you can't help it, think about those around you. Or at least just some of those around you. Or fine, maybe just a few. Or is it only me? It's selfish and you've got no idea how much it hurts. Rubbing salt onto the wound feels really horrible, even if it's subconscious. I'm probably not in the position to complain, or to bitch about it, because each one of us has got our own self-expectations just that I don't believe in how you are informing the whole world about it. I can feel my own's dropping, so much. Or probably it's just to protect myself. I guess we all just got to be more sensitive to the people around us.

Disappointment's a terrible, terrible feeling by the way. The way it creeps into your heart and screws up your emotions really suck. Realising you were actually the one whom you've been praying so hard not to be is such a horrible feeling. The cruel truth smacks you hard in the face and you've got no choice but to accept it. To be honest, I find myself reacting lesser already. Mind over matter, mind over matter. Ignore those loud, buzzing, irritating noises around your ears that pisses the hell out of you and just mind your own business.

Alright, I'm done ranting. I'll get over it and watch me bounce back.

Go, Sally (:
Monday, May 4, 2009

Things are in a whirl, and nothing's confirmed. At least, nothing that we've been informed of.

Whatever that might happen, I know it's the "best case scenario" so don't bother to tell me. Be rational, be realistic, be practical; it's the best we can get.

But it still hurts.

I have the rights to be sad, 'cos ___'s mine. I'm making myself sound damn big but I feel for it, 'cos the efforts are in there. Everyone's sad, everyone put in efforts, but Sally is really just sad.

I'll work around it; it'll not go down like that.

And moreover, I believe that this might just turn out to be a blessing in disguise in its own way. We'll be the strongest team ever. Go go go! <3